Hm.

As you may or may not know, I do Biology and Chemistry (among others) to A2 level. I'm currently sitting at home, with a massive pack of questions on plant hormones and the kidneys and god knows what else, and I can't do them. I've been in the kidneys lessons, so I have no excuse there, and I've been underperforming according to my minimum grade (calculated from my GCSE results). I struggled to get a B in AS Bio, and a C in Chemistry. I've missed two Chemistry lessons. And I'm really really tired, I haven't been sleeping very well the last week. I do AS French, too, and very nearly did last year. Oh, how I regret not taking languages instead of sciences. I did sciences to do medicine, and I haven't got the grades to do that, and now I'm struggling to get into a decent uni for a course I want to do. If I get a C in Chem, which statistics dictate I am likely to do going by my AS grade, I won't get into anywhere I've got offers for. And that's looking increasingly likely.

The thing is, I'm getting really stressed over this - I don't want to be at college while all my peers and friends my own age are at uni. Yet if I don't get in, I will be, doing A2 French, and maybe struggling in a few things to A2 in a year. Like German. But most of the good unis would want three A2s, and I'm not sure I have enough subjects. I want to go to university - my mother didn't, and she regrets it - and I don't want to be a "mature student" either, but it's too late to change my courses now. And dropping out wouldn't do me any good. So what on earth do I do? I have no time machine to encourage myself 18 months ago to do languages instead, and be happy and unstressed. If I did languages, I think I could have made Oxbridge, where I'd always dreamed of going when I was little. However, with this set of A-level grades and the fact I won't be taking three subjects to A2 in one sitting means I haven't got a hope. Even though I've seen the entry tests for the course I'd want to do (French and Russian), and I think I'd do well at it, and the submissions of work and that.

"Don't give up on your dreams", people say. I wish.